So tired.

So tired.

A mother. A boyfriend. A victim. A stranger. A politician. Darkness.
Writing this script is starting to look like a very daunting process. And writing a script with someone else, like with all group work, can get complicated. Although we seem to be managing to balance for now, as we're friends and are both clearly trying to make sure to give as well as just take, it's a good thing that we generally seem to be thinking along the same lines. 
But I'm still uncomfortable with the topic. 
The proverb, " write what you know" is not just frivolous advice. I've made an outline - plot outline, if you will - during class, and gave that to Jed to ounce off of. Since it's his idea, it seems only fair he gets to write the first shot. I've just made general... Guidelines, perhaps? 
Frankly, I'm not even certain that I'd like to write this anymore - that's another reason I've encouraged Jed to do the first draft. I'm completely out of depth - and I know it. Sure, I can rework a script, edit and such, but what I think I really want to be working on are costumes, makeup, lighting, props and sound. Unfortunately, I think those aspects a are taken. 
I'm glad though - I've managed to secure a role that has as little to do with the actual rape. An objective observer - much like the position I hold in reality (well, would hold if we had a TV or I stayed up to date on events). 
We'll see what happens. It's frustrating to be able to picture the final image immaculately within the mind, yet find yourself unable to convey the entirety of the vision. And everyone's vision differs sightly, so none will come to pass, but rather a mix of a couple conveyed ideas mushed together. For better or worse, we have yet to see - and even then, it'll remain a matter of purely subjective opinion. 
Here's the outline of thoughts I've constructed so far.:
OUTLINE OF THOUGHTS

C – comparison to country, when first moved to India, didn’t believe it till you see itCan’t believe these stories come up so often, etc. so frequent, feels like I can’t open a newspaper or turn on the TV without another horror story jumping out at me – dreadful to read stuff like this
R – can’t believe this has happened, etc. setting the situation of vaguely how it happened, trying to calm down
J – cold denial, cold statements (2?)
C – look at what I’m reading, those politician statements, etc. don’t they realize how this would affect the families – everyone involved?!
J – really awful quote
R – give up on calming down - How am I going to tell my husband? He’s not home, worried – everything’s such a mess, why did this happen to me, why is this my fate? What on earth I have done to deserve this?
J – quote
Jed – She was so broken. Her body… (A bit of description?) I … I can’t … 
R – Karma, blame past life, (tears?) It’s a curse, such a tragedy – how can I move on? This is going to affect my whole life; my friends won’t talk to me – oh my poor daughter! Am I bad mother? 
C – I can’t imagine being in such a situation, that poor girl – to be brutalized like that (“quote”) *shudder*
Jed – When I found her…. I left her that night! Why did I leave her? Should have walked her home, all my fault! My sweet girl, I’m so sorry.
R – She’ll never get married, there were so many things she wanted to do – we had so many plans for her! Wanted to send her to the US – get a masters, become a modern woman (etc.)
Jess – quote 
Jed – She flinched when I came close, she wouldn’t let me hold her – she looked so broken, to see her like that – she was smart, lively, intelligent… Such a beautiful, cheerful woman you’ll never meet. Really, my __ was one of a kind… And I loved her. I really, really did. 
C – There’s really no shame in the media, is there? The details they put in these articles… What an invasion of privacy! 
R – at least there’s wide media coverage – then something will happen, people will do something! This won’t just be pushed under the rug and ignored
Jed – To be suffering like that, and have her story splashed over the news – to be reminded every moment she’d try to forget – she couldn’t catch a break, there was no escape. Her nightmare followed her around during the day, chasing her, never letting her heal…
R – Some things in life make such an impression you can’t remove them – you can’t just move on. What am I going to do (tears)?
Jed – And those men – no beasts – those pigs who did that… How could they? What on earth were they thinking? I for one would like to know what was going through their heads to think something like this was ok!
C – How are they punished? The guys involved, clearly not a severe enough retribution if this just keeps happening?
Jed – This country is so unsafe for women – blame anyone and everything – how can this happen? It ruined her – my girl is gone. She’s never done anything to deserve it *begin to rant louder and louder* Why her? Etc. I hate this country, etc. 
Jess – same time – statements, Etc. 
Rhean – Same time – oh my baby, my little girl, oh what has happened?!  Etc.
Coco – Same time – makes me sick, and I don’t even know them! To think that women are treated as objects, common whores to be used at a man’s disposal.. etc.

MOOLI – cut them off –  “SHUT UP! All of you, just SHUT THE HELL UP!”


Costumes
Rhean – white salvarr – wear jewelry
Jed – white hoodie and jeans, white top
Jess – bling bling bling – big phone, lots of gold, bling – black pants and a blazer
Coco – jeans and a sweater – normal clothes (casual) – nothing Indian 
Mooli – red. No jewelry – dressed in ….. ?